Okay, maybe I am over reacting with this, but I just checked out my boyfriend's myspace, and he has himself listed as single and all his friends all HOT girls (with the execption of his daughter). Should I be upset? I know we have our problems, but I don't bill myself as single and make friends with a bunch of hot guys!
I think he set this up almost a year ago, we have been together for about 4 years. Maybe I should give him what he wants and let him be single...maybe I am being a nut case and shouldn't worry. Should I tell him, he is the one who gave me the myspace address...maybe he wants to see if I get upset...I should just kill him and be done with it.
Saturday, October 15, 2005
Friday, October 07, 2005
What to do?
I have been dating the same man for almost 5 years, we are both divorced and he has two kids, two different moms. Needless to say lots of bagage! It is very obvious that his youngest daughter does not like me (nor does her mom, I am satan in their eyes). This makes my life very hard. I actually try best I can to get along with this child, but it does no good. I feel like my being in this man's life is hindering his relationship with his daughter. He refused to see it that way, but because of this I think it makes it even worse.
I have seriously begun to question the viability of this relationship. Having been together this long it is almost as hard as a dicision as getting divorced the first time. But I don't feel happy a lot of the time, he doesn't seem happy especially lately, and I know this particular daughter is not happy.
It is definately time to do some serious soul searching...
I have seriously begun to question the viability of this relationship. Having been together this long it is almost as hard as a dicision as getting divorced the first time. But I don't feel happy a lot of the time, he doesn't seem happy especially lately, and I know this particular daughter is not happy.
It is definately time to do some serious soul searching...
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
Internal Conflict....
I have an internal conflict...I hate decisions and this one is a biggy!
I have just finished my masters work and am waiting to find out of my portfolio has been approved. In the meantime, I must decided if I want to graduate in a hotel in Texas in January, or wait and graduate in Bloomington, Indiana. The Indiana graduation will most likely be at Indiana University, which would be very cool.
Now for the conflict. I am supposed to go to China this summer. There are two weeks I can chose from. Week one returns the day before I would need to be in Indiana. The second week leaves two days before, therefore I would be in China.
So, do I race myself crazy to get from China to Indiana in July or do I graduate in Texas, or do I skip China and go to Indiana? What a mess.
It may seem trival to some, but graduating at a hotel just bothers me. I feel like it cheapens my degree, even though I know how much work I put into it. But than again, I really want to go to China and may not ever get the chance again.
What to do, what to do!
I have just finished my masters work and am waiting to find out of my portfolio has been approved. In the meantime, I must decided if I want to graduate in a hotel in Texas in January, or wait and graduate in Bloomington, Indiana. The Indiana graduation will most likely be at Indiana University, which would be very cool.
Now for the conflict. I am supposed to go to China this summer. There are two weeks I can chose from. Week one returns the day before I would need to be in Indiana. The second week leaves two days before, therefore I would be in China.
So, do I race myself crazy to get from China to Indiana in July or do I graduate in Texas, or do I skip China and go to Indiana? What a mess.
It may seem trival to some, but graduating at a hotel just bothers me. I feel like it cheapens my degree, even though I know how much work I put into it. But than again, I really want to go to China and may not ever get the chance again.
What to do, what to do!
Sunday, September 11, 2005
Not so many years ago...
After completing the last post I began thinking about my plans for the day and realized that on this date, not so many years ago, the United States of America took a tremendous blow as terrorists attacked our great country. We have come back the a vengence, we are strong and for the most part united. It sadens me when I think about the importance of our country standing as one and then I hear people accusing others of not acting in a timely enough fashion to various things.
We need to stop blaming and take responsibility for our actions and for what happens. It isn't anyones fault we were attacked, could it have been prevented? Maybe...but it wasn't, let's move one. Could things have been done better in New Orleans? Maybe...but they weren't, let's move one. We need to stay united as a country. We are after all the UNITED States of America. If we stand united we are strong and mights. When we fights amongst ourselves and blame and namecall we open ourselfs to disaster.
Please everyone, support all who need the support, the government who is trying to act in everyone's best interest, for the soldiers who are fighting to help those who can't help themselves, and for our neighbors that they are well, safe and generous in their support when needed.
We need to stop blaming and take responsibility for our actions and for what happens. It isn't anyones fault we were attacked, could it have been prevented? Maybe...but it wasn't, let's move one. Could things have been done better in New Orleans? Maybe...but they weren't, let's move one. We need to stay united as a country. We are after all the UNITED States of America. If we stand united we are strong and mights. When we fights amongst ourselves and blame and namecall we open ourselfs to disaster.
Please everyone, support all who need the support, the government who is trying to act in everyone's best interest, for the soldiers who are fighting to help those who can't help themselves, and for our neighbors that they are well, safe and generous in their support when needed.
It's underway...
The new school year is underway, and things are going along at break neck speed already. The first auditions of the year are on Thursday. I selected a relatively small show because I am still working on building th program and students aren't used to my rigorous rehearsal schedules, well, it looks like I might have over 50 kids audition for a cast of 9. I told them I would select a second show and we would do two fall plays (yes, I am crazy).
Outside of the school things are going great, went and saw Big Bad Voodoo Daddy last night, what a great show! If you haven't ever seen them live, or heard their music get out there and check it out. I think the best part was that you can tell they are really having a good time. I love watching peopel who love to perform.
On a somber note, please offer your prays, good karma and general well-wished to the surviors of Huricane Katrina. As we all know so many people lost everything, but they aren't the only ones...many animals had to be left behind, send thoughts for them also. If you can send money to one of the many organizations helping, if you can't afford money, manybe there are somethigns in your closet that you don't need that you can donate. Be kind and generous, remember most of us are lucky enough to not have been effected.
Outside of the school things are going great, went and saw Big Bad Voodoo Daddy last night, what a great show! If you haven't ever seen them live, or heard their music get out there and check it out. I think the best part was that you can tell they are really having a good time. I love watching peopel who love to perform.
On a somber note, please offer your prays, good karma and general well-wished to the surviors of Huricane Katrina. As we all know so many people lost everything, but they aren't the only ones...many animals had to be left behind, send thoughts for them also. If you can send money to one of the many organizations helping, if you can't afford money, manybe there are somethigns in your closet that you don't need that you can donate. Be kind and generous, remember most of us are lucky enough to not have been effected.
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
All State, the DMV and a headache...
So, about a week ago I get a call from my insurance company that I haven't paid my premium. Rather confused I called back and said "yes I did, a week ago." I was then informed that no, I hadn't because they didn't have my check. I then replied that I would call back the next day because I had to look into this situation, and being at work on lunch just didn't make that possible at the time.
Upon reaching home I looked into the check registery and yes, I did send a check, I called my bank and all the other checks written on the same day had posted, so...I called the insurance company the next day, payed my premium by credit card (to avoid having the policy dropped, remember that, it's important later on in the story), then called my credit union and did a stop payment on the check ($10 charge).
Flash forward to TODAY (a week later), I get a call from the insurance company. My payment posted too late and my policy has been dropped. Dropped from a company that has held my insurance for over 20 years (now that's a scarey story in and of itself). I have been driving around for over a week with no car insurance and they just called me TODAY!!!!!
So, I race to Office Depot (I mean why would I have a fax at my house?), and pay $5.00 to send paperwork to the insurance company, this is after paying $2.00 to receive the fax. Just when I think all is good with the world I get a phone call, the registration I sent was expired. Now those who know me know that this type of thing doesn't happen, I don't let things expire on accident, I'm just too organized. So, now I am late for a meeting with some friends and I have no insurance and no way to fix it...the DMV is closed!
I now have to go to the DMV tomorrow and pay $16 for a new registration card, because I can't find mine anywhere! This is something I would not misplace. So something really fishy had to have been going on in my life with this thing came.
And now, I have to temp all day tomorrow (at a job I mentally finshed last week, I am tired of being the spa company phone girl), then race to the DMV to get a new registration card, then race to Office Depot in an effort to get this thing faxed before the office closes and I spend yet another day without car insurance. Because you know what will happen, Murphy's Law dictates that I will get pulled over for something, with no valid registration and no insurance. Kiss my good drive discount goodbye.
Because this situation is something I could not control I have decided to blame it all on the democrats...because I can't control them either.
Upon reaching home I looked into the check registery and yes, I did send a check, I called my bank and all the other checks written on the same day had posted, so...I called the insurance company the next day, payed my premium by credit card (to avoid having the policy dropped, remember that, it's important later on in the story), then called my credit union and did a stop payment on the check ($10 charge).
Flash forward to TODAY (a week later), I get a call from the insurance company. My payment posted too late and my policy has been dropped. Dropped from a company that has held my insurance for over 20 years (now that's a scarey story in and of itself). I have been driving around for over a week with no car insurance and they just called me TODAY!!!!!
So, I race to Office Depot (I mean why would I have a fax at my house?), and pay $5.00 to send paperwork to the insurance company, this is after paying $2.00 to receive the fax. Just when I think all is good with the world I get a phone call, the registration I sent was expired. Now those who know me know that this type of thing doesn't happen, I don't let things expire on accident, I'm just too organized. So, now I am late for a meeting with some friends and I have no insurance and no way to fix it...the DMV is closed!
I now have to go to the DMV tomorrow and pay $16 for a new registration card, because I can't find mine anywhere! This is something I would not misplace. So something really fishy had to have been going on in my life with this thing came.
And now, I have to temp all day tomorrow (at a job I mentally finshed last week, I am tired of being the spa company phone girl), then race to the DMV to get a new registration card, then race to Office Depot in an effort to get this thing faxed before the office closes and I spend yet another day without car insurance. Because you know what will happen, Murphy's Law dictates that I will get pulled over for something, with no valid registration and no insurance. Kiss my good drive discount goodbye.
Because this situation is something I could not control I have decided to blame it all on the democrats...because I can't control them either.
Saturday, July 23, 2005
The Things People Do...
Okay, now people, I think we all need to get over ourselves and just let others be who they are. I recently read a post on another board about someone not buying furniture from a company because they sponor the Queer Eye for the Straight Guy show. And my first that was...WHAT? I think there are alot more damaging things these people could be boycotting than a company that sponsors a show that helps straight men find a bit of style, it's not a conversion show!
On the same note, I ran into to an email on the evils of Harry Potter! It's just a book people, and a pretty good book at that. JK Rowling is not trying to convert people to the "Dark Side." It's fiction. What is funny about this one, these people haven't even read the book. Okay, if you read the book and you don't like it, it's not your style, taste or whatever, fine...but don't slam what you know nothing about.
Now, something I have noticed is that the people who tend to do this the most...extreme right wing religous folk. Okay, I admit it, I have more a Republican/conservative bent (don't tell the teaching or theatre communities, I'd be laughed out), but I keep it in check. I don't fly off the handle when it comes to having an open mind about things I don't agree with. I don't even do much Emotional slamming (that is what Larry Elder and I loving call the democrats), even when I know how WRONG they are. Each to their own.
So, what is my point here...GET OVER YOURSELVES. Just because you don't agree with it, if you like the table at the place that sponsors the Queer Eye show, buy the gosh darn table, it's a table for goodness sake. It isn't a reflection of your personal beliefs. If you want to boycot something boycott ignorance, stupidity and intollerance.
On the same note, I ran into to an email on the evils of Harry Potter! It's just a book people, and a pretty good book at that. JK Rowling is not trying to convert people to the "Dark Side." It's fiction. What is funny about this one, these people haven't even read the book. Okay, if you read the book and you don't like it, it's not your style, taste or whatever, fine...but don't slam what you know nothing about.
Now, something I have noticed is that the people who tend to do this the most...extreme right wing religous folk. Okay, I admit it, I have more a Republican/conservative bent (don't tell the teaching or theatre communities, I'd be laughed out), but I keep it in check. I don't fly off the handle when it comes to having an open mind about things I don't agree with. I don't even do much Emotional slamming (that is what Larry Elder and I loving call the democrats), even when I know how WRONG they are. Each to their own.
So, what is my point here...GET OVER YOURSELVES. Just because you don't agree with it, if you like the table at the place that sponsors the Queer Eye show, buy the gosh darn table, it's a table for goodness sake. It isn't a reflection of your personal beliefs. If you want to boycot something boycott ignorance, stupidity and intollerance.
Monday, July 18, 2005
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DISNEYLAND
Yesterday was the 50th birthday of the Happiest Place on Earth. I must say that I have many fond memories of Disneyland, both from visiting as a child and an adult and from working many long hours during college . Even with all the politics, complaints and headaches I can truly say that Walt's vision is still alive today and with this great celebration shinning stronger than ever.
When I arrived at the Park at 1:00 am on Sunday morning to get in line to be a part of the festivities (and there were already 3000 people in front of me) I had no idea what to expect...grumpy, tired people? Nope, everyone was in great sprits and even cheered on the employees at they arrived for their shifts. Once inside everything was the same, the guests were treated better than ever as Cast Members lined Main Street welcoming us all home. Reminding us that Walt wanted everyone to feel at home, welcome and loved at this magical place.
Sometimes in the bustle of the crowds that can gather at the Park we forget what it is all about, that Walt wanted to creat a place where dreams really do come true...and they do!
Happy Birthday Disneyland! Thank you Walt!
When I arrived at the Park at 1:00 am on Sunday morning to get in line to be a part of the festivities (and there were already 3000 people in front of me) I had no idea what to expect...grumpy, tired people? Nope, everyone was in great sprits and even cheered on the employees at they arrived for their shifts. Once inside everything was the same, the guests were treated better than ever as Cast Members lined Main Street welcoming us all home. Reminding us that Walt wanted everyone to feel at home, welcome and loved at this magical place.
Sometimes in the bustle of the crowds that can gather at the Park we forget what it is all about, that Walt wanted to creat a place where dreams really do come true...and they do!
Happy Birthday Disneyland! Thank you Walt!
Saturday, July 09, 2005
I love mail! Email, snail mail, even junk mail. I love sending mail and I love getting mail. Now, the only thing that bothers me about mail is that most of the people I send mail to, do not send mail back. Why is it when someone sends me a note they expect me to reply in the first 2 seconds of reading the note, but when I send a note, I should not and can not expect a reply from the receiver of said note. I consider myself a good friend, I am always here when people need me, willing to help out in any way I can...but heaven forbid I call and ask for help fsom some of these people. I understand people live busy lives, so do I, but hey! if you call and need to rant about your latest breakup, the least you could do is meet for coffee and and listen to me talk about my theatre program for a few minutes once in a while.
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
What are they thinking...
I just finished reading an article in California Educator about the No Child Left Behind legislation and the effect it is having on the Arts in our schools. Now, correct me if I'm wrong, but isn't one of California's top industries entertainment? Then why does the state insist on cutting funding, all but eliminating the arts in our schools. In my district elementary music has been taken away, schools that are underperforming on those crazy tests have had their elective programs taken away and counselors are telling students that once they take the one year required for college they can't take an arts class again because they need to focus on AP classes and things like that.
Have these people forgetten that for some of these kids the arts are the thing keeping them in school? Has all the research on the effect of the arts on student achievement in what is considered to be the "core" just passed these people by? Did they miss the part of NCLB that states that the arts ARE core? Goodness! what is a drama teacher to do?
We are creating a society of people who can take tests but can't feel with their souls.
Have these people forgetten that for some of these kids the arts are the thing keeping them in school? Has all the research on the effect of the arts on student achievement in what is considered to be the "core" just passed these people by? Did they miss the part of NCLB that states that the arts ARE core? Goodness! what is a drama teacher to do?
We are creating a society of people who can take tests but can't feel with their souls.
Friday, July 01, 2005
Oh, a-camping we will go...
I don't know if anyone out there goes camping, but it is a pretty big tradition with my family (at least part of the family). We get together and go to the same campgrounds year after year. We love it. I just returned from our most recent outting and a great time was had by all. Got to love camping on the beach! The weather was fairly cooperative, sunny but windly (typical for this particular location). The kids had a wonderful time looking for rocks to paint and playing with a metal detector, of course they thought that every bottle cap and rusty tent spike was a treasure.
As much as I love camping and sitting by the campfire I spent a great deal of time wondering why we put ourselves through such an experience. Just think about it for a second, we all work work for the things we have, homes, cars, comfortable beds...why do we then go out and live in a canvas "house," sleep on the ground, and cook with limited resources, hike to the restrooms, pay to take very short showers and tend with dirt *everywhere*, not to mention the squirles, crows and bugs, and insist that is relaxing. Are we crazy people?
As much as I love camping and sitting by the campfire I spent a great deal of time wondering why we put ourselves through such an experience. Just think about it for a second, we all work work for the things we have, homes, cars, comfortable beds...why do we then go out and live in a canvas "house," sleep on the ground, and cook with limited resources, hike to the restrooms, pay to take very short showers and tend with dirt *everywhere*, not to mention the squirles, crows and bugs, and insist that is relaxing. Are we crazy people?
Monday, June 27, 2005
Wicked
Went to the theatre yesterday, saw Wicked. If you haven't had the opportunity to see it, try and get tickets! It was very enjoyable, music is great, the set is amazing and the actress who plays Elphaba is AMAZING!!!!
But here is my question...why do people take small children to the theatre and then proceed to let them talk, wander about, and try to explain a complex story all during the performance. As a "theatre" person this is a huge pet peev. When did people stop following general etiquette? When did it become all about the "me"?
Oh, yeah, and when did it become okay to take off your shoes and put your feet on the chair in front of you (with your toes right next to some poor patrons head)? ARGH! We need to teach a course in Theatre Etiquette before selling tickets to a play.
But here is my question...why do people take small children to the theatre and then proceed to let them talk, wander about, and try to explain a complex story all during the performance. As a "theatre" person this is a huge pet peev. When did people stop following general etiquette? When did it become all about the "me"?
Oh, yeah, and when did it become okay to take off your shoes and put your feet on the chair in front of you (with your toes right next to some poor patrons head)? ARGH! We need to teach a course in Theatre Etiquette before selling tickets to a play.
Sunday, June 26, 2005
A small fallacy...
the reality is that I don't consider myself a "drama teacher" but rather a Theatre Educator. I know it's a semantics thing, but it works for me and that's all that matters.
Why start a blog? I don't know, it just seemed like the thing to do this morning. I often don't have much creative or interesting to say, but sometimes I do have a soapbox to stand on. So, here we go, off into the world of theatre, education and anything else that strikes my fancy.
Why start a blog? I don't know, it just seemed like the thing to do this morning. I often don't have much creative or interesting to say, but sometimes I do have a soapbox to stand on. So, here we go, off into the world of theatre, education and anything else that strikes my fancy.
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